I woke up and thought “I’ve lost my faith.”
It was a few days after the January 6th insurrection, and I just felt useless. So many people I know seem to think it was ok, or not a big deal. A minority, but enough to shake me.
I didn’t even realize I had faith until it was gone. What a lonely and alienating feeling.
Not all of us have faith in the Divine, yet I hope we all have faith in something that makes us secure. As you’ll see below, this type of faith is the soul trait of Trustworthiness, which is what we explored in this meeting of Jewish Wisdom For Coping with a Pandemic. In the meeting, I shared the amazing experience I had just a few hours later that helped get me back on track. You can see for yourself in the video I shared.
Sometimes it takes just a little reminder to help us find ourselves, and sometimes we need help. I reached out to my friend and sometimes mentor Rabbi David Jaffe. He asked, “What do you need to focus on for your journey? Once you know that, you can share with your community from a place of authenticity.” He helped me focus on the soul traits of Trustworthiness and Anger for this weeks teaching.
It was a truly special gathering, which is why I am devoting a blog post to it. We covered:
- What I saw in the Institute For Jewish Spirituality Daily Sit that helped me recover my faith
- The connection of growing seeds to trustworthiness
- A secret teaching: when everyone was in break out groups, I shared an analogy about having a firm tent peg in the ground, a peg that was loosened for all of us on the January 6th insurrection
- People shared the prayers they wrote inspired by a poem by Rabbi Pam Wax.
Yes, I woke up and thought, “I’ve lost my faith.” I’m so thankful for the American Mussar community that helped me process this experience.
You are heartily invited to watch the video, and share your reaction below.